yikes

Despite the cheery picture I uploaded yesterday (which did make me laugh a lot because it does actually look like us), I have woken up feeling ever so anxious.  Last night I did some working out of accounts and what’s been spent and worked out that we have already spent over what was quoted for this first stage.  A third over the quote.  Which is quite a lot, and suddenly I’ve got the FEAR.  Anyway, Pat and I have decided we need to discuss details with Tom.  I am being ridiculously meticulous about the amount we are spending and putting everything into folders and making endless spreadsheets, like some sort of lunatic.  I’m probably panicking, but I do worry about that sort of thing.  Also we looked up the boiler that Tom wants us to get and it costs almost £4,000!  Just the boiler.  So we’re not sure we’ll be able to do that.  Anyway, I will do an entry about Kabolas: ‘to Kabola or not to Kabola’.  (They are very serious marine boilers for trawlers and yachts that rich people own and fishing boats which people live on in the antarctic). It’s not so much that I’m worried we’ll run out (there is that) but that I genuinely don’t think we should spend over what we’ve got because it would be silly.  As I was saying yesterday.  It’s the old thing of pouring your money into a big hole.  And that’s quite literal at the moment what with all the holes we’re making.